Today marks one year since Andy proposed in the rain. It was raining like it is today. We hiked through the forest around the Hoover Dam in Westerville. I remember as he got on one knee, he didn’t even ask me yet as I took off running in circles and squealing. I’m pretty sure I said yes through my squeals.
Marking that day, I read through my journal, thanking the Lord for what we have, how we can grow closer and improve, and seeing His hand on our marriage since then. I found this entry and stirred me even more how much the spirit of God teaches us:
God, give us the priority to make “us” a priority. Not our hobbies, passions, jobs, family, or kids someday, but “us.”
Without a strong us centered on Jesus, our cords will continue to break. We vowed you would be our center, and even expressed it during our tiny wedding ceremony with the Divinity Braid.
Teach us how to live it.
And I felt your spirit say:
“I’ve already taught you through my son. Now pick it up and walk it out together.
Serve selflessly, love unconditionally, give without expectations, invite one another daily into your hearts. Trust always, never contempt. Breathe forgiveness and mercy. Meditate throughout your entire being. Continuously surrender, yet never let go of my hope.
My legacy lives and thrives abundantly within you, why not release it? Why not share it? For that too, is me.
Live my legacy as I have threaded within you. Do you doubt I am there? Destroy these walls and cages that separate and enslave.
You know well, my new ways are created in and through you. You are not your fathers ways, you are not your mothers ways, for you have left to cleave to your lover and bask in that newness.
Fear not walking in these new ways, but rejoice through the steps, and each step you learn, and even sometimes dare to take.”
Andy, thank you for asking me one year ago to be your wife. I am honored you would want to spend a life time with me. You chose me.