I read over my blog yesterday when I was about to be interviewed by the Sports Editor of the Record Courier, Tom Nader. The events that have taken place over the recent year and a half hit me like a truck. I suddenly became emotional to see all the monumental moments that God has carried be through, between the sexual assault, my boardercross accident, being locked down to a wheelchair for months, being involved with love146, learning how to walk again, surgery, starting my own business, being published in an inspirational book, and starting a new adventure as a figure competitor.
My spiritual father that passed away a few years ago, Dr. John Watson (Marion Christian Center and Eagle Christian College) preached on making monuments throughout our lives. Just as monuments are made for memories of the fallen and moments of victory, I too make monuments within my heart and within my writing so that I will never forget. There are reasons we have memorials. For me personally, it is to always look back and thank God for each step along this adventure called life. I’m even thankful for the pain, for it is then that I have grown the most.
Currently writing my first book, I look forward to share the trauma’s of life and how they have been overcome through faith in Christ. I know without a doubt that I am supposed to follow through with this mission, therefore having sixteen rough draft chapters ready to edit. I am doing this because I know I’m not the only one that has been hurt or gone through some sort of trauma. For any single person to say they are without, I will be bold enough to say they are lying to their self.
During the interview, Tom said we see all the statistics and scores in the news that show how good an athlete or team is, but we never see the person that makes up the athlete. I was humbled to be recognized with such an honor. Before I pursued a professional snowboarding career, I told God that if I was making an idol out of the sport, then I would walk away at that moment. He gave me peace, to always renew my mind that even though I was ranked nationally, that snowboarding was something that I did, it wasn’t who I was. Even now as doors open up to be on stage in large figure championships, I refuse to be so wrapped up in myself and lose my identity in it. These shows are something I do, but it is not who I am.
Usually preparing for a show that involves dialing in on a perfect diet of specific nutritional science to stand before a panel of judges that critique every inch of you is quite nerve racking. However not today. I am full of thankfulness for what I have overcome and continue to move forward in purpose, seeking God through the steps and even through the chaos. I’ve been wearing braces on both ankles in hopes to walk in five inch heels on stage tomorrow and appear effortless, but I’m honestly so thankful I can walk. I am so thankful I am working with one of the best coaches in the United States, and the crazy thing is, I have nothing but peace residing in me.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. — Philippians 4:6,7